At an early age, I learned there is no joy in stealing. I was about 10 years old, when I snuck into my father’s dresser drawer. I have no idea why I did this, maybe just because it was forbidden territory. There, I found a brown leather billfold. I remember touching the leather and then taking it. I figured it would never be missed as I had never seen my father use it. ✨ But, what I didn’t process in the moment, was obviously, I couldn’t use it either! If I did I’d have some explaining to do. ✨ So I hid it along with a guilty feeling for 30 years. I confessed it to my father when I was 41. I was a mother at that point with a two month old daughter. My parents were visiting our home and my father was dying of congestive heart failure. When I confessed to him, he just kind of looked at me and said: “I always knew one of you took it.” Geez that made me feel worse. Not only had I felt guilty for 30 years, I’d cast a pall over the integrity of my 2 brothers and 2 sisters. Then he asked: “Did you enjoy it?” I said no and admitted I’d never used it plus kept it hidden all those years. He looked at me and just smiled. I cried and gave him the only hug I actually remember. He didn’t reprimand me. He knew my conscience had done enough of that. ✨ Taking what isn’t ours will never deliver the joy we derive from earning something we want and getting it the good old-fashioned way: Work.
PS: This is my father that day with our daughter @Chamonixx who is now about to graduate from college. Less than 20 days later, the world was impacted by the events of September 11. Thirty days after that, October 11, 2021, my Dad died. Time passes quickly. Now is a good time to resolve any outstanding guilt.
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